Only Me

I got a pretty new notebook yesterday and I absolutely love it. Want to know what else happened? My brain just exploaded with these ideas. I was think about vampires and witches yesterday, but the second I got my hands on this I realized that wasn't what I was going to write. So, I wrote my ideas down and just slept on them. I know how I can be and sometimes I end up changing my mind after a good nights sleep because I realize the idea I though was so amazing, really wasnt. Only this time I woke up so excited to start working on this that I grabbed my notebook, headed downstairs and started writing. Yep, thats right. I started writing and love what I wrote. I mean I'm still undecided on how I want to go about the story and if I want it to be in third or first persons point of view, but I'm just gonna keep writing until I can't anymore.

I can't believe this happened and how completely excited I am at the moment. It's too bad I have to go to work in just a few but it'll just give me more time to think of more ideas. Also I realized that what I'm writing is magical realism. I never thought I would be able to do it, but here I am. I've got no title, not that many characters, but its not stopping my pen from writing across the page. I haven't been able to do that in almost three years. I know that as soon as I work through more of what I have and actually start getting somewhere this project is going to have my full attention and hopefully it'll get posted up on my figment page in the next couple of months.

I'm happy that come July I'll actually have a good project to work on for camp nanowrimo. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and hope that this becomes something amazing.

So Much For That Plan

I've been so bad. I had exactly six days off of work to do nothing but read and start actually writing my story and what happened? I got sick. So of course I did nothing but mope around for five days feeling sorry for myself and taking medicine. I did nothing. I laid in my bed or on the new furniture my parents got in the living room. At one point I did bring a notebook downstairs with me, but I wasn't fooling anyone. Today is my last day off before I go back to work (Diagon Alley here I come!) I'm hoping that working right in the center of such a magical place, my brain will finally start coming up with more ideas. I'm also off to see Maleficent on Sunday and hopefully that might spark something in me as well.

On another note, I haven't really stuck to my goal of reading more books and less fanfiction. It's mostly due to the fact that I don't have any new books too read and I'm not ready to re-read my old books (I've read them so many times already) I'm about to head out with my mom to walmart (I know) and going to pick up a new notebook and hopefully browse their book section in hopes of finding something interesting.

I also found out more to my future plans. I know at the moment all I'm really doing is saving up money for new clothes, I actually have the money already and I can't wait to see how much more I'll have in four months. After that I desperately want a new laptop, the macbook air to be exact, so I'll start saving for that and give my old laptop to my brother who desperately will need one for college. After that I'm not sure in which direction I want to go in. I'm still looking for other job options that get better pay, but we'll see how it goes. I just really don't want to stay in merchandise fore the new year. This year is halfway through almost and I really want to move away form the registers and do something else. I was thinking about going into the entertainment part of Diagon Alley. It can never hurt to ask questions and try out. Even if it's just a character attendant?

I'm really looking to try and find my own place sometime next year and I know I won't be able to afford that on a minimum wage job. Or if I want to go to school as well. So hopefully I'll be able to find something.

So more about my writing. There have been a couple things that I've always wanted to writing about. Vampire being one of them. I love vampires. I grew up loving Dracula and the Underworld series. I just watched the movie 'The Only Lovers Left Alive' and my obsession cam back and slapped me in the face. There are so many good vampire books out there and so many that just aren't. I wan't to write something about vampires so badly. I miss them and I know that this is a project I really want to work on.

I want to write about witches. Something about them has always captured my attention. I mean come on, they can do magic!

Vampires and witches, I always come back to them, but I never know if I should mix them together into one big story or have them into two different worlds. I love series where they have this supernatural community that lurks in the shadows where the humans can't see them. I'm just not exactly sure how to go about it.

Setting Some Goals

This has absolutely nothing to do with my writing, but for the last couple of years I've been trying to change my fashion sense. I've always been a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. I love dresses and I love skirts, but it's always easier for me to just slip on jeans and a shirt. I don't like showing that much skin, I never have and I prefer layers. It wasn't until I got my pinterest that I found these amazing outfits that I love. I see them in the stores that I go to but I never buy them because I know that I would just leave them in my closet to hang.

So I've come up with a new goal for myself. This summer I'm going to be part of the opening team at Diagon Alley in Universal Studios Orlando (I'm working at Ollivanders!) and I know in order to get through the craziness and long hours I'm sure I'm going to be working I've decided to just get healthier. Start eating better, do yoga (seems like fun) and just generally be more active so I can be used to being on my feet all day. I have so many goals that I've set for myself, but it all depends on how the next couple months go.

I randomly went through my calender and chose a random date (September 20th) where I'm going to take everything out of my closet and donate it to charities. Shoes included. I basically have about four months from this moment to start looking for where I can get all the clothes, save money and hopefully loose weight. Doesn't matter how much weight or if I don't, I'm still going to buy new clothes. So as of this moment I'm going to try my hardest not to spend money on things I don't need. So far I have a good amount saved up and I'm sure by September 20th I'll have just enough for new clothes, shoes, bags, accessories and so on.

After my new wardrobe I have to decide if I wan't to go back to school or start apartment hunting. Again this all depends in a couple months from now if I'm still at universal or I'm working somewhere else. I want to be a librarian and I'm constantly applying places that don't require a Bachelors degree. Mostly I'm applying at offices just to get some type of experience, but so far no go. If I am working somewhere else and making a decent amount of money then I'm going to start looking to move out of my parents house and on my own. However if I'm still at Universal then I'm most likely going back to college.

This is what I want my style to be like.

It's mostly dresses with layers to them so it shouldn't be that difficult. The only thing I can think about being difficult is trying to save money. I tend to waste money on stuff I really don't need, but completely want. Thankfully I have a friend who I told about my goal to start a new wardrobe and she really wants to do it with me. It might just be the motivation I need. Just knowing that I'm not alone in this and have a support system does wonders. 

I also have a goal to read more books. I'm usually reading fanfiction (which some I think could completely by books on their own from how amazing they are) but my phone is dying extremely quickly because I'm always on it reading. That's another one of my problems, I don't pay my phone bill, my parents do. I have a galaxy s4 but I want an iphone. I'm a waste of money really. Hopefully I can stick to the goal of just making myself healthier and loving the body that I'm in.

Thing's Are Finally on the Move

Usually when I'm not stumbling around on pinterest, I'm usually searching through the pages of deviantart. A while ago I stumbled across a photographer Laura Makabresku and her photos have these little stories that go with them and I slowly got lost in her world. It has this dark touch to them that have kept me fascinated from the moment I learned of her.

 Here are a couple of her works.

I can't deny that they have had a large influence on my writing from the moment that I found her. There's always been a story in my head, all muddled up and barely understandable, but slowly I'm making my way through the details. I've read so many books and fairytales as well where the guy is always the hero. He saves the girl. I don't mind these types of stories. However it's when I spend hours in a bookstore going up and down the same isle and pulling out books from left to right that I find these gems where it's the girl saving the boy. She isn't anything extraordinary (not at first) she's normal and without powers, but the boy makes her this amazing person who has the power to save him and the world sometimes. I absolutely love these types of stories.

That's kind of when I realized that this was what I needed to write. It wasn't about the boy saving his princess. It was about the girl saving her prince, or beast, or even the powerful wizard who was too busy saving everyone else.

I finally have a title that I'm completely in love with and it actually goes with the plot of my story. Yes! I finally have a plot as well and now it's just working on the characters and the small details that make the story a story.

This story really wouldn't have started moving without the inspiration of this song Fire and Fury by Skillet. I have loved this banned for years now, but I stopped listening to them a while back. I went to a concert of theirs a while ago and they played this song and I remember standing in the crowd, letting the music just pulse through me when suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was watching these two characters and I just knew they were waiting for me to write there story,

Magical Realism or Gothic?

It always comes down to this. I know that my stories have to have some type of fantasy in it. Something that 

makes it extraordinary and not like the world I live in. The idea that I have is so small and isn't really much of anything so it can honestly go either way. 

I've always wanted to try my shot at writing magical realism. I just discovered this genre about a year ago if that and feel absolutely in love with it. Some of my favorite stories are magical realism. Though I always shy away form it because I feel as if my ideas wouldn't really work with it. Maybe magical realism isn't something that I should do a the moment? It's really just a thought.

Then I'm in love with Gothic stories. The dark themes and setting? It's what I've been in love with since I was a kid. I grew up being afraid and in love with monsters. I've always thought about doing something set during the Victorian times (lets face it, the time period is the perfect setting. Everyone knows this) but I'm never been able to write anything that isn't in the 21st century. Maybe now is the perfect time to try?

I just have to think more about it and see how it goes.

Why Can't Titles Be Easier To Choose?

I'm completely terrible at this. Whenever I decide that I'm going to get serious about writing and latch on to an idea I have, I always get stumped on the title. Forget about a plot and character names. I always get stuck on a title because I feel like I need the perfect one. Everyone always says to leave that last and that once I have more of a plot the title will be easier to come up with. No matter how much I try to take their advice, I just can't. I like being able to give my story a title even though it's not really a story yet.

I spent most of my day at work yesterday trying to think of different titles and situations for the story. It didn't really go anywhere. Like, I know for sure that my story is fantasy and that it leans more towards the magical, fairy tale part of fantasy almost. There are still so many details that I have to work out and the longer I think about it, the more excited and frustrated I get.

Every time I think up a title, I realize it doesn't really work. It works better as a chapter than anything else. Hopefully it doesn't keep me down too long.

I discovered a couple sites for writing recently too. Though my favorite by far is figment. It's just so wonderful looking and I've read such amazing stories on there already. I also discovered Camp Nanowrimo, which is a month writing challenge set in July. So my plan is to hopefully start sorting out the plot and details of my story so when July does come, I can start writing. I'm going to make my goal of 20,000 words and hope for the best.

Writers Block Go Away!

The moment I started thinking about these amazing characters and story was the moment that writers block hit me. For the past 2-3 years, I haven't really been able to write much. Most have been short little stories in hopes of getting myself to write something longer, but nothing worked. For the longest time, I could think about nothing but these characters and setting and realized that the story I loved for so long really didn't have much of a plot to it at all.

The last couple years have been a struggle of me moving away and then back to these characters in hope of giving them a decent story some day. Nothings worked though. I've finally reached the point where I miss writing entirely too much and have decided to push those characters into my shoe box where I keep all of my other ideas that I swear I'll get back to late. (I really might!)

I've hidden away everything and decided to start completely on a blank slate. So of course the first thing I went out and did was buy a notebook (I'm better at hand writing, the on the computer. Too many distractions) Its just a regular 70 page notebook. I remember I used to be able to fill one of these bad boys out from beginning to end. I also got myself a pinterest. There's just something about making a board for your story that completely motivates me.

So here's to hopefully kicking writes block in the butt!