Camp Nanowrimo!

It starts it 6 days! I'm so excited for this. Every time Nanowrimo comes around, I always get excited for it but I never have a decent idea to start it. This time is different. I have a pretty good idea what I want to write and I almost shocked myself when I figured out if was going to be a young adult story. I haven't written anything for that genre in years. Usually it's been that my main characters sort of age with me, but I just knew this wasn't one of those cases. I see my character aging and rowing up, but I see the very start of when everything bad starts to happen. (I love when bad things happen in stories, I don't know why)

So title? check!
Characters? check!
Plot?check!
and whats this, a plot twist? check!
whats that, I have plans to make it a series? check!

I'm super excited about this. The last time I had actually planned out an entire series for a story was back in high school. I was just entering 11th grade and came up with this series that I loved and still do love. I have it stashed somewhere on my flash drive(where ever that may be) It's also the longest story I've ever written (about 20,000 words) I know that at some point in my life time I going to go back and actually complete that series, because it was so cool in my opinion. I certainly had a lot of fun while I was writing it. It was all about reapers, and death, and goddesses.

Now my new story!

I started writing some things for it just to see what kind of point of view it should be. At the moment, I decided first person. It's been a long time since I've even written in first person, so we'll see how this goes. I'm keeping it in mind that I can always switch to third person if I don't like it. I'm going to spend the next five days between work and plotting. That's all I have plan and maybe go to the bookstore and get the next book of the Bloodline series.

But so far I've decided to call my story Love Me Dead. I'm not sure if I'll keep it, but I love it and so far it goes with the story which is good enough for me. I don't want to say too much about it, just so I can keep my excitement alive. Usually if I don't tell people, it encourages me more to actually write and have some stuff for them to read. I don't know its just the way I work.

Of Love and Other Things

I'm a sucker when it comes to a good romance book. Usually I'm going up and down the isles in barnes and nobles just plucking books of the shelves and reading their backs to find out more about them. Usually I never go looking for a book in particular, unless I keep hearing about it. There are two types of love stories that I'm addicted to. The first being about two people coming together and just traveling the world and falling in love with the adventure and finally each other. There's just something so magical about it in my opinion. I love reading about these characters just finding themselves and experiencing life. I'm usually not one to read a story without some type of fantasy in it, but there are those books that sneak their way into my heart and stay there forever.

On my journey to the bookstore I picked up two books. The first was Just One Day by Gayle Forman. I found out about this book a long time ago, but never gave it any real thought. Today I just happened to see it on the bookshelf. I finished it in five hours. I could not put it down. I kept grinning like an idiot and fell completely in love with this story. The second book I got was Bloodlines by Richelle Mead. I've read her Vampire Academy series and fell completely in love with Rose. When I found out she had started on another series in the same world, I flipped. I've known about it for a long time now, but I never really read it because I knew it wasn't the right time. Now I'm looking forward to reading it.

So, I've come up with this great plot and characters for a magical realism story. Like I have everything I could possibly need to just start writing and get a couple couple paragraphs in, but I haven't started writing. I'm so completely frustrated with myself. On one hand, I do want to write this story about magical things with this amazing world that's almost like a complete fairy tale, but then deep down I want to write something completely badass. I have this idea for this girl who's just completely sure of herself. Like the kind of girl who walks like she owns the world underneath her feet and she knows it.

Part of my wants this beautiful and magical world while this other part of me wants the darkness and violence and drama. (I always say that I'm a Hufflepuff on the outside, but a complete Slytherin on the inside) I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point at all, but I know I have to do something.

While I was also getting myself lost in the bookstore, all I kept thinking about was why I wasn't working in one? I want to be a Librarian, it would only make sense to start somewhere. It's what I want to go back to school and study. I really want to work in a bookstore and the only ones close to me are Barnes and Nobles and Books-A-Million. I like both store just fine, but they have this thing where apparently you have to know alot about the nook and getting people to buy their membership. I don't mind the nook and I wouldn't mind selling it, but why memberships? Why cant bookstores just be about books and not memberships and meeting certain numbers.

Only Me

I got a pretty new notebook yesterday and I absolutely love it. Want to know what else happened? My brain just exploaded with these ideas. I was think about vampires and witches yesterday, but the second I got my hands on this I realized that wasn't what I was going to write. So, I wrote my ideas down and just slept on them. I know how I can be and sometimes I end up changing my mind after a good nights sleep because I realize the idea I though was so amazing, really wasnt. Only this time I woke up so excited to start working on this that I grabbed my notebook, headed downstairs and started writing. Yep, thats right. I started writing and love what I wrote. I mean I'm still undecided on how I want to go about the story and if I want it to be in third or first persons point of view, but I'm just gonna keep writing until I can't anymore.

I can't believe this happened and how completely excited I am at the moment. It's too bad I have to go to work in just a few but it'll just give me more time to think of more ideas. Also I realized that what I'm writing is magical realism. I never thought I would be able to do it, but here I am. I've got no title, not that many characters, but its not stopping my pen from writing across the page. I haven't been able to do that in almost three years. I know that as soon as I work through more of what I have and actually start getting somewhere this project is going to have my full attention and hopefully it'll get posted up on my figment page in the next couple of months.

I'm happy that come July I'll actually have a good project to work on for camp nanowrimo. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and hope that this becomes something amazing.

So Much For That Plan

I've been so bad. I had exactly six days off of work to do nothing but read and start actually writing my story and what happened? I got sick. So of course I did nothing but mope around for five days feeling sorry for myself and taking medicine. I did nothing. I laid in my bed or on the new furniture my parents got in the living room. At one point I did bring a notebook downstairs with me, but I wasn't fooling anyone. Today is my last day off before I go back to work (Diagon Alley here I come!) I'm hoping that working right in the center of such a magical place, my brain will finally start coming up with more ideas. I'm also off to see Maleficent on Sunday and hopefully that might spark something in me as well.

On another note, I haven't really stuck to my goal of reading more books and less fanfiction. It's mostly due to the fact that I don't have any new books too read and I'm not ready to re-read my old books (I've read them so many times already) I'm about to head out with my mom to walmart (I know) and going to pick up a new notebook and hopefully browse their book section in hopes of finding something interesting.

I also found out more to my future plans. I know at the moment all I'm really doing is saving up money for new clothes, I actually have the money already and I can't wait to see how much more I'll have in four months. After that I desperately want a new laptop, the macbook air to be exact, so I'll start saving for that and give my old laptop to my brother who desperately will need one for college. After that I'm not sure in which direction I want to go in. I'm still looking for other job options that get better pay, but we'll see how it goes. I just really don't want to stay in merchandise fore the new year. This year is halfway through almost and I really want to move away form the registers and do something else. I was thinking about going into the entertainment part of Diagon Alley. It can never hurt to ask questions and try out. Even if it's just a character attendant?

I'm really looking to try and find my own place sometime next year and I know I won't be able to afford that on a minimum wage job. Or if I want to go to school as well. So hopefully I'll be able to find something.

So more about my writing. There have been a couple things that I've always wanted to writing about. Vampire being one of them. I love vampires. I grew up loving Dracula and the Underworld series. I just watched the movie 'The Only Lovers Left Alive' and my obsession cam back and slapped me in the face. There are so many good vampire books out there and so many that just aren't. I wan't to write something about vampires so badly. I miss them and I know that this is a project I really want to work on.

I want to write about witches. Something about them has always captured my attention. I mean come on, they can do magic!

Vampires and witches, I always come back to them, but I never know if I should mix them together into one big story or have them into two different worlds. I love series where they have this supernatural community that lurks in the shadows where the humans can't see them. I'm just not exactly sure how to go about it.

Setting Some Goals

This has absolutely nothing to do with my writing, but for the last couple of years I've been trying to change my fashion sense. I've always been a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. I love dresses and I love skirts, but it's always easier for me to just slip on jeans and a shirt. I don't like showing that much skin, I never have and I prefer layers. It wasn't until I got my pinterest that I found these amazing outfits that I love. I see them in the stores that I go to but I never buy them because I know that I would just leave them in my closet to hang.

So I've come up with a new goal for myself. This summer I'm going to be part of the opening team at Diagon Alley in Universal Studios Orlando (I'm working at Ollivanders!) and I know in order to get through the craziness and long hours I'm sure I'm going to be working I've decided to just get healthier. Start eating better, do yoga (seems like fun) and just generally be more active so I can be used to being on my feet all day. I have so many goals that I've set for myself, but it all depends on how the next couple months go.

I randomly went through my calender and chose a random date (September 20th) where I'm going to take everything out of my closet and donate it to charities. Shoes included. I basically have about four months from this moment to start looking for where I can get all the clothes, save money and hopefully loose weight. Doesn't matter how much weight or if I don't, I'm still going to buy new clothes. So as of this moment I'm going to try my hardest not to spend money on things I don't need. So far I have a good amount saved up and I'm sure by September 20th I'll have just enough for new clothes, shoes, bags, accessories and so on.

After my new wardrobe I have to decide if I wan't to go back to school or start apartment hunting. Again this all depends in a couple months from now if I'm still at universal or I'm working somewhere else. I want to be a librarian and I'm constantly applying places that don't require a Bachelors degree. Mostly I'm applying at offices just to get some type of experience, but so far no go. If I am working somewhere else and making a decent amount of money then I'm going to start looking to move out of my parents house and on my own. However if I'm still at Universal then I'm most likely going back to college.

This is what I want my style to be like.

It's mostly dresses with layers to them so it shouldn't be that difficult. The only thing I can think about being difficult is trying to save money. I tend to waste money on stuff I really don't need, but completely want. Thankfully I have a friend who I told about my goal to start a new wardrobe and she really wants to do it with me. It might just be the motivation I need. Just knowing that I'm not alone in this and have a support system does wonders. 

I also have a goal to read more books. I'm usually reading fanfiction (which some I think could completely by books on their own from how amazing they are) but my phone is dying extremely quickly because I'm always on it reading. That's another one of my problems, I don't pay my phone bill, my parents do. I have a galaxy s4 but I want an iphone. I'm a waste of money really. Hopefully I can stick to the goal of just making myself healthier and loving the body that I'm in.

Thing's Are Finally on the Move

Usually when I'm not stumbling around on pinterest, I'm usually searching through the pages of deviantart. A while ago I stumbled across a photographer Laura Makabresku and her photos have these little stories that go with them and I slowly got lost in her world. It has this dark touch to them that have kept me fascinated from the moment I learned of her.

 Here are a couple of her works.

I can't deny that they have had a large influence on my writing from the moment that I found her. There's always been a story in my head, all muddled up and barely understandable, but slowly I'm making my way through the details. I've read so many books and fairytales as well where the guy is always the hero. He saves the girl. I don't mind these types of stories. However it's when I spend hours in a bookstore going up and down the same isle and pulling out books from left to right that I find these gems where it's the girl saving the boy. She isn't anything extraordinary (not at first) she's normal and without powers, but the boy makes her this amazing person who has the power to save him and the world sometimes. I absolutely love these types of stories.

That's kind of when I realized that this was what I needed to write. It wasn't about the boy saving his princess. It was about the girl saving her prince, or beast, or even the powerful wizard who was too busy saving everyone else.

I finally have a title that I'm completely in love with and it actually goes with the plot of my story. Yes! I finally have a plot as well and now it's just working on the characters and the small details that make the story a story.

This story really wouldn't have started moving without the inspiration of this song Fire and Fury by Skillet. I have loved this banned for years now, but I stopped listening to them a while back. I went to a concert of theirs a while ago and they played this song and I remember standing in the crowd, letting the music just pulse through me when suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was watching these two characters and I just knew they were waiting for me to write there story,

Magical Realism or Gothic?

It always comes down to this. I know that my stories have to have some type of fantasy in it. Something that 

makes it extraordinary and not like the world I live in. The idea that I have is so small and isn't really much of anything so it can honestly go either way. 

I've always wanted to try my shot at writing magical realism. I just discovered this genre about a year ago if that and feel absolutely in love with it. Some of my favorite stories are magical realism. Though I always shy away form it because I feel as if my ideas wouldn't really work with it. Maybe magical realism isn't something that I should do a the moment? It's really just a thought.

Then I'm in love with Gothic stories. The dark themes and setting? It's what I've been in love with since I was a kid. I grew up being afraid and in love with monsters. I've always thought about doing something set during the Victorian times (lets face it, the time period is the perfect setting. Everyone knows this) but I'm never been able to write anything that isn't in the 21st century. Maybe now is the perfect time to try?

I just have to think more about it and see how it goes.