Hello August, why is it still so hot?

It's never cold in Florida, not really. We have Summer and then about one month of cooler temperatures at some point between November and February. I hope one of these days I can see all four seasons.

I've started saving up for a car and so far its going well. It's nice actually having money right now. I'm also planning on going back to school, though at the moment I'm not sure which one I want to go too. I've been studying at Valencia for a while before I decided to take a break since I had no clue what I even wanted to study. Now I do, but they don't have to program that I want, where as in Seminole, they do have a course for Humanities and still offer the direct connect to UCF. Only thing is the closest Seminole campus is still pretty far away from my house and I don't want to do online classes. Luckily I still have until December to decide what I want to do.

Work has been going pretty great, though not as well as we had hoped. They are cutting back on hours like crazy which I don't really mind, but at the same time it does suck. At least I'm still getting hours.

Another great thing that's happened is that I started Supernatural. My friend has been telling me about this show for years, and I have seen a couple episodes before and they had been good, I just never really knew much about what was happening. I finally started from season one and I can't believe I've waited this long to get into this show.

This is just to great and I'm slowly dying from all the emotions it makes me feel, plus my paranoia is completely shot and every little sound I hear is a ghost or a demon now. I don't know why I do this to myself, but I don't care.

With all the paranormal stuff going on in the show, made my realize just how much I love this genre and brought me back to when me and my friend visited BAM and I found myself in the New Age area. I've been telling myself I will write something about witches and magic and maybe even demons, vampires and every other things that goes bump in the night for the longest time now, but about five seconds after I make this decision, I go back and say I'm not ready or my idea doesn't have enough to actually start this. So for the past two weeks, I've been tentatively doing some research and reading more stuff in the genre as well as watching more shows about it.

I've got an idea, nothing big yet, but it's a reason to write this out. I have my main character and I have what sets the entire story into motion and keeps it moving. I haven't actually started writing anything down. It's all in my head at the moment slowly making itself more and more real.

Hopefully, if I keep going the way I am, I'll be able to actually start planning on actual paper soon.

Camp Nanowrimo!

It starts it 6 days! I'm so excited for this. Every time Nanowrimo comes around, I always get excited for it but I never have a decent idea to start it. This time is different. I have a pretty good idea what I want to write and I almost shocked myself when I figured out if was going to be a young adult story. I haven't written anything for that genre in years. Usually it's been that my main characters sort of age with me, but I just knew this wasn't one of those cases. I see my character aging and rowing up, but I see the very start of when everything bad starts to happen. (I love when bad things happen in stories, I don't know why)

So title? check!
Characters? check!
Plot?check!
and whats this, a plot twist? check!
whats that, I have plans to make it a series? check!

I'm super excited about this. The last time I had actually planned out an entire series for a story was back in high school. I was just entering 11th grade and came up with this series that I loved and still do love. I have it stashed somewhere on my flash drive(where ever that may be) It's also the longest story I've ever written (about 20,000 words) I know that at some point in my life time I going to go back and actually complete that series, because it was so cool in my opinion. I certainly had a lot of fun while I was writing it. It was all about reapers, and death, and goddesses.

Now my new story!

I started writing some things for it just to see what kind of point of view it should be. At the moment, I decided first person. It's been a long time since I've even written in first person, so we'll see how this goes. I'm keeping it in mind that I can always switch to third person if I don't like it. I'm going to spend the next five days between work and plotting. That's all I have plan and maybe go to the bookstore and get the next book of the Bloodline series.

But so far I've decided to call my story Love Me Dead. I'm not sure if I'll keep it, but I love it and so far it goes with the story which is good enough for me. I don't want to say too much about it, just so I can keep my excitement alive. Usually if I don't tell people, it encourages me more to actually write and have some stuff for them to read. I don't know its just the way I work.

Of Love and Other Things

I'm a sucker when it comes to a good romance book. Usually I'm going up and down the isles in barnes and nobles just plucking books of the shelves and reading their backs to find out more about them. Usually I never go looking for a book in particular, unless I keep hearing about it. There are two types of love stories that I'm addicted to. The first being about two people coming together and just traveling the world and falling in love with the adventure and finally each other. There's just something so magical about it in my opinion. I love reading about these characters just finding themselves and experiencing life. I'm usually not one to read a story without some type of fantasy in it, but there are those books that sneak their way into my heart and stay there forever.

On my journey to the bookstore I picked up two books. The first was Just One Day by Gayle Forman. I found out about this book a long time ago, but never gave it any real thought. Today I just happened to see it on the bookshelf. I finished it in five hours. I could not put it down. I kept grinning like an idiot and fell completely in love with this story. The second book I got was Bloodlines by Richelle Mead. I've read her Vampire Academy series and fell completely in love with Rose. When I found out she had started on another series in the same world, I flipped. I've known about it for a long time now, but I never really read it because I knew it wasn't the right time. Now I'm looking forward to reading it.

So, I've come up with this great plot and characters for a magical realism story. Like I have everything I could possibly need to just start writing and get a couple couple paragraphs in, but I haven't started writing. I'm so completely frustrated with myself. On one hand, I do want to write this story about magical things with this amazing world that's almost like a complete fairy tale, but then deep down I want to write something completely badass. I have this idea for this girl who's just completely sure of herself. Like the kind of girl who walks like she owns the world underneath her feet and she knows it.

Part of my wants this beautiful and magical world while this other part of me wants the darkness and violence and drama. (I always say that I'm a Hufflepuff on the outside, but a complete Slytherin on the inside) I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point at all, but I know I have to do something.

While I was also getting myself lost in the bookstore, all I kept thinking about was why I wasn't working in one? I want to be a Librarian, it would only make sense to start somewhere. It's what I want to go back to school and study. I really want to work in a bookstore and the only ones close to me are Barnes and Nobles and Books-A-Million. I like both store just fine, but they have this thing where apparently you have to know alot about the nook and getting people to buy their membership. I don't mind the nook and I wouldn't mind selling it, but why memberships? Why cant bookstores just be about books and not memberships and meeting certain numbers.

Only Me

I got a pretty new notebook yesterday and I absolutely love it. Want to know what else happened? My brain just exploaded with these ideas. I was think about vampires and witches yesterday, but the second I got my hands on this I realized that wasn't what I was going to write. So, I wrote my ideas down and just slept on them. I know how I can be and sometimes I end up changing my mind after a good nights sleep because I realize the idea I though was so amazing, really wasnt. Only this time I woke up so excited to start working on this that I grabbed my notebook, headed downstairs and started writing. Yep, thats right. I started writing and love what I wrote. I mean I'm still undecided on how I want to go about the story and if I want it to be in third or first persons point of view, but I'm just gonna keep writing until I can't anymore.

I can't believe this happened and how completely excited I am at the moment. It's too bad I have to go to work in just a few but it'll just give me more time to think of more ideas. Also I realized that what I'm writing is magical realism. I never thought I would be able to do it, but here I am. I've got no title, not that many characters, but its not stopping my pen from writing across the page. I haven't been able to do that in almost three years. I know that as soon as I work through more of what I have and actually start getting somewhere this project is going to have my full attention and hopefully it'll get posted up on my figment page in the next couple of months.

I'm happy that come July I'll actually have a good project to work on for camp nanowrimo. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and hope that this becomes something amazing.

Thing's Are Finally on the Move

Usually when I'm not stumbling around on pinterest, I'm usually searching through the pages of deviantart. A while ago I stumbled across a photographer Laura Makabresku and her photos have these little stories that go with them and I slowly got lost in her world. It has this dark touch to them that have kept me fascinated from the moment I learned of her.

 Here are a couple of her works.

I can't deny that they have had a large influence on my writing from the moment that I found her. There's always been a story in my head, all muddled up and barely understandable, but slowly I'm making my way through the details. I've read so many books and fairytales as well where the guy is always the hero. He saves the girl. I don't mind these types of stories. However it's when I spend hours in a bookstore going up and down the same isle and pulling out books from left to right that I find these gems where it's the girl saving the boy. She isn't anything extraordinary (not at first) she's normal and without powers, but the boy makes her this amazing person who has the power to save him and the world sometimes. I absolutely love these types of stories.

That's kind of when I realized that this was what I needed to write. It wasn't about the boy saving his princess. It was about the girl saving her prince, or beast, or even the powerful wizard who was too busy saving everyone else.

I finally have a title that I'm completely in love with and it actually goes with the plot of my story. Yes! I finally have a plot as well and now it's just working on the characters and the small details that make the story a story.

This story really wouldn't have started moving without the inspiration of this song Fire and Fury by Skillet. I have loved this banned for years now, but I stopped listening to them a while back. I went to a concert of theirs a while ago and they played this song and I remember standing in the crowd, letting the music just pulse through me when suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was watching these two characters and I just knew they were waiting for me to write there story,

Magical Realism or Gothic?

It always comes down to this. I know that my stories have to have some type of fantasy in it. Something that 

makes it extraordinary and not like the world I live in. The idea that I have is so small and isn't really much of anything so it can honestly go either way. 

I've always wanted to try my shot at writing magical realism. I just discovered this genre about a year ago if that and feel absolutely in love with it. Some of my favorite stories are magical realism. Though I always shy away form it because I feel as if my ideas wouldn't really work with it. Maybe magical realism isn't something that I should do a the moment? It's really just a thought.

Then I'm in love with Gothic stories. The dark themes and setting? It's what I've been in love with since I was a kid. I grew up being afraid and in love with monsters. I've always thought about doing something set during the Victorian times (lets face it, the time period is the perfect setting. Everyone knows this) but I'm never been able to write anything that isn't in the 21st century. Maybe now is the perfect time to try?

I just have to think more about it and see how it goes.

Writers Block Go Away!

The moment I started thinking about these amazing characters and story was the moment that writers block hit me. For the past 2-3 years, I haven't really been able to write much. Most have been short little stories in hopes of getting myself to write something longer, but nothing worked. For the longest time, I could think about nothing but these characters and setting and realized that the story I loved for so long really didn't have much of a plot to it at all.

The last couple years have been a struggle of me moving away and then back to these characters in hope of giving them a decent story some day. Nothings worked though. I've finally reached the point where I miss writing entirely too much and have decided to push those characters into my shoe box where I keep all of my other ideas that I swear I'll get back to late. (I really might!)

I've hidden away everything and decided to start completely on a blank slate. So of course the first thing I went out and did was buy a notebook (I'm better at hand writing, the on the computer. Too many distractions) Its just a regular 70 page notebook. I remember I used to be able to fill one of these bad boys out from beginning to end. I also got myself a pinterest. There's just something about making a board for your story that completely motivates me.

So here's to hopefully kicking writes block in the butt!