It's All New

So it's been a while since I've last posted and I want to say that I've been super productive and been kicking butt with all my goals. Some I have, some I really haven't at all. About a week ago I dug out all my old paints and brushes from the garage and started painting. Nothing big, and it's been nearly two years since I've even thought about drawing, much less painting, but I just got this sudden urge,

My process is really just putting a bunch of colors on the page before it actually turns into anything. I wont even begin to tell you how much of a mess I made. My mom wasn't too pleased with it, but she's always loved my paintings and now we're in the process of hunting down frames so we came put them up in the living room.

Speaking of hunting, there are vampires in Universal. This week was the official start of Halloween Horror Nights and us lucky team members got our very own preview night. Let me tell you, as I was walking through the Dracula house, my mind was going crazy with all sorts of ideas when these vampires were jumping out at us and hissing in our faces. Then my mind was completely blown when we walked through a scare zone that is completely dedicated to a masquerade ball. I was buzzing with excitement and nearly talked my friends ear off with how many story ideas I had.

Although we don't get much of Autumn here in Florida, it's my favorite season. I love the idea of leaves changing colors, the chill in the air just starting and of course, the things that go bump in the night. There's two sides of my really, The side that loves soft and whimsical things and then the slightly larger side that loves all things supernatural and slightly disturbed. There's no middle. Which I think is why I always struggle with my writing. On one hand I want to write whimsical sad stories about journeys and love and then on the other hand I want to right dark gothic stories about blood and curses. I still haven't been able to find an in-between.

There's this one book called Daughter of Smoke and Bones that managed to pull it off so perfectly in my opinion. It's all writing so whimsically and magical, yet at the same time its angels and demons and wars. I want to be able to perfect that skill.

Has anyone ever seen this show? I started watching it when it first aired, but then I was always working and never was able to see it. I found it on netflix the other day and I remember how much I loved it. Now I'm just frustrated it had only one season.

Really all of this is just adding to me wanting to write more, but the big problem is that I don't know what to write. Every time I start to get something, I scrap the idea because it either reminds me too much of something else or because it doesn't want to go anywhere afterwords. Hopefully I'll buckle down and start writing soon.

Hello August, why is it still so hot?

It's never cold in Florida, not really. We have Summer and then about one month of cooler temperatures at some point between November and February. I hope one of these days I can see all four seasons.

I've started saving up for a car and so far its going well. It's nice actually having money right now. I'm also planning on going back to school, though at the moment I'm not sure which one I want to go too. I've been studying at Valencia for a while before I decided to take a break since I had no clue what I even wanted to study. Now I do, but they don't have to program that I want, where as in Seminole, they do have a course for Humanities and still offer the direct connect to UCF. Only thing is the closest Seminole campus is still pretty far away from my house and I don't want to do online classes. Luckily I still have until December to decide what I want to do.

Work has been going pretty great, though not as well as we had hoped. They are cutting back on hours like crazy which I don't really mind, but at the same time it does suck. At least I'm still getting hours.

Another great thing that's happened is that I started Supernatural. My friend has been telling me about this show for years, and I have seen a couple episodes before and they had been good, I just never really knew much about what was happening. I finally started from season one and I can't believe I've waited this long to get into this show.

This is just to great and I'm slowly dying from all the emotions it makes me feel, plus my paranoia is completely shot and every little sound I hear is a ghost or a demon now. I don't know why I do this to myself, but I don't care.

With all the paranormal stuff going on in the show, made my realize just how much I love this genre and brought me back to when me and my friend visited BAM and I found myself in the New Age area. I've been telling myself I will write something about witches and magic and maybe even demons, vampires and every other things that goes bump in the night for the longest time now, but about five seconds after I make this decision, I go back and say I'm not ready or my idea doesn't have enough to actually start this. So for the past two weeks, I've been tentatively doing some research and reading more stuff in the genre as well as watching more shows about it.

I've got an idea, nothing big yet, but it's a reason to write this out. I have my main character and I have what sets the entire story into motion and keeps it moving. I haven't actually started writing anything down. It's all in my head at the moment slowly making itself more and more real.

Hopefully, if I keep going the way I am, I'll be able to actually start planning on actual paper soon.