I Don't Know What To Call This

It's been nearly month since my last post and I wan't to say that I've been completely productive with my days and that my words are just filling up pages in my notebook, but I can't say that. I actually did go and have a writing day with my friend before this month started and I had this idea all planned out to the point where I could start writing and it made sense, but I couldn't go through with it. It was all about vampires and in my opinion it was just what I needed. the perfect blend of violence, and freedom, and fighting for what was right. I couldn't even start it. So far the past months, I've been doing nothing but going to work and coming home to sleep. There were two or three days where I actually got to hang out with friends that wasn't at work and that was amazing.

I'm still in the process of reading The Bloodlines series by Richelle Mead and it's still good. I just bought the third book and now there's two guys on the cover as well as the girl. I'm really hoping that it doesn't turn into some love triangle. I can't express how much I hate love triangles, which was the main reason why I stopped reading young adult books in the first place because it seems that's all there was with every book I would pick up. I was completely hesitant on stating this genre again, but I remembered how much I loved The Vampire Academy series a couple years ago, so hopefully it isn't too bad. Right not it's the only series I'm reading and I have no idea what I'm going to red next. I don't know if I'm going to start the Harry Potter series again or just try to find something else entirely.

The other day me and my friend were hanging out at Books A Million and I found myself in the new age area looking at all the books they had about magic, spells, and tarots. (I don't know why they call it new age, when it's been around longer than Christianity) But anyway, I've always wanted to learn more about this stuff. I've always found it fascinating and would always check out books about Wicca and Pagan stuff at the library whenever I wanted to write a story about witches. I fell in love with this kind of stuff and how they were connected to the basic elements and so on. While I was standing there, I was just itching to purchase all these books and start my research. I didn't get them but its been on my mind and I haven't been able to think about anything else or the fact that I really do want to write something about spell castors. Whether they are going to witches or not, is still undecided in my head.

I've been thinking about it for a long time now too. How I want it to be a YA and how it's mostly about self discovery and romance, because I can't write anything without having some type of romance in it. Though the way I see it in my head, I know I'm going to have to right it differently then my previous stories and I know that's mostly whats been holding me back from starting.

On other news I'm going to start cleaning up my pinterest. I have too many folders for things that don't need their own folders. So hopefully while I'm doing this it'll set off some type of inspiration and get me moving on my plan.

Thing's Are Finally on the Move

Usually when I'm not stumbling around on pinterest, I'm usually searching through the pages of deviantart. A while ago I stumbled across a photographer Laura Makabresku and her photos have these little stories that go with them and I slowly got lost in her world. It has this dark touch to them that have kept me fascinated from the moment I learned of her.

 Here are a couple of her works.

I can't deny that they have had a large influence on my writing from the moment that I found her. There's always been a story in my head, all muddled up and barely understandable, but slowly I'm making my way through the details. I've read so many books and fairytales as well where the guy is always the hero. He saves the girl. I don't mind these types of stories. However it's when I spend hours in a bookstore going up and down the same isle and pulling out books from left to right that I find these gems where it's the girl saving the boy. She isn't anything extraordinary (not at first) she's normal and without powers, but the boy makes her this amazing person who has the power to save him and the world sometimes. I absolutely love these types of stories.

That's kind of when I realized that this was what I needed to write. It wasn't about the boy saving his princess. It was about the girl saving her prince, or beast, or even the powerful wizard who was too busy saving everyone else.

I finally have a title that I'm completely in love with and it actually goes with the plot of my story. Yes! I finally have a plot as well and now it's just working on the characters and the small details that make the story a story.

This story really wouldn't have started moving without the inspiration of this song Fire and Fury by Skillet. I have loved this banned for years now, but I stopped listening to them a while back. I went to a concert of theirs a while ago and they played this song and I remember standing in the crowd, letting the music just pulse through me when suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was watching these two characters and I just knew they were waiting for me to write there story,

Magical Realism or Gothic?

It always comes down to this. I know that my stories have to have some type of fantasy in it. Something that 

makes it extraordinary and not like the world I live in. The idea that I have is so small and isn't really much of anything so it can honestly go either way. 

I've always wanted to try my shot at writing magical realism. I just discovered this genre about a year ago if that and feel absolutely in love with it. Some of my favorite stories are magical realism. Though I always shy away form it because I feel as if my ideas wouldn't really work with it. Maybe magical realism isn't something that I should do a the moment? It's really just a thought.

Then I'm in love with Gothic stories. The dark themes and setting? It's what I've been in love with since I was a kid. I grew up being afraid and in love with monsters. I've always thought about doing something set during the Victorian times (lets face it, the time period is the perfect setting. Everyone knows this) but I'm never been able to write anything that isn't in the 21st century. Maybe now is the perfect time to try?

I just have to think more about it and see how it goes.

Why Can't Titles Be Easier To Choose?

I'm completely terrible at this. Whenever I decide that I'm going to get serious about writing and latch on to an idea I have, I always get stumped on the title. Forget about a plot and character names. I always get stuck on a title because I feel like I need the perfect one. Everyone always says to leave that last and that once I have more of a plot the title will be easier to come up with. No matter how much I try to take their advice, I just can't. I like being able to give my story a title even though it's not really a story yet.

I spent most of my day at work yesterday trying to think of different titles and situations for the story. It didn't really go anywhere. Like, I know for sure that my story is fantasy and that it leans more towards the magical, fairy tale part of fantasy almost. There are still so many details that I have to work out and the longer I think about it, the more excited and frustrated I get.

Every time I think up a title, I realize it doesn't really work. It works better as a chapter than anything else. Hopefully it doesn't keep me down too long.

I discovered a couple sites for writing recently too. Though my favorite by far is figment. It's just so wonderful looking and I've read such amazing stories on there already. I also discovered Camp Nanowrimo, which is a month writing challenge set in July. So my plan is to hopefully start sorting out the plot and details of my story so when July does come, I can start writing. I'm going to make my goal of 20,000 words and hope for the best.