Hello August, why is it still so hot?

It's never cold in Florida, not really. We have Summer and then about one month of cooler temperatures at some point between November and February. I hope one of these days I can see all four seasons.

I've started saving up for a car and so far its going well. It's nice actually having money right now. I'm also planning on going back to school, though at the moment I'm not sure which one I want to go too. I've been studying at Valencia for a while before I decided to take a break since I had no clue what I even wanted to study. Now I do, but they don't have to program that I want, where as in Seminole, they do have a course for Humanities and still offer the direct connect to UCF. Only thing is the closest Seminole campus is still pretty far away from my house and I don't want to do online classes. Luckily I still have until December to decide what I want to do.

Work has been going pretty great, though not as well as we had hoped. They are cutting back on hours like crazy which I don't really mind, but at the same time it does suck. At least I'm still getting hours.

Another great thing that's happened is that I started Supernatural. My friend has been telling me about this show for years, and I have seen a couple episodes before and they had been good, I just never really knew much about what was happening. I finally started from season one and I can't believe I've waited this long to get into this show.

This is just to great and I'm slowly dying from all the emotions it makes me feel, plus my paranoia is completely shot and every little sound I hear is a ghost or a demon now. I don't know why I do this to myself, but I don't care.

With all the paranormal stuff going on in the show, made my realize just how much I love this genre and brought me back to when me and my friend visited BAM and I found myself in the New Age area. I've been telling myself I will write something about witches and magic and maybe even demons, vampires and every other things that goes bump in the night for the longest time now, but about five seconds after I make this decision, I go back and say I'm not ready or my idea doesn't have enough to actually start this. So for the past two weeks, I've been tentatively doing some research and reading more stuff in the genre as well as watching more shows about it.

I've got an idea, nothing big yet, but it's a reason to write this out. I have my main character and I have what sets the entire story into motion and keeps it moving. I haven't actually started writing anything down. It's all in my head at the moment slowly making itself more and more real.

Hopefully, if I keep going the way I am, I'll be able to actually start planning on actual paper soon.

I Don't Know What To Call This

It's been nearly month since my last post and I wan't to say that I've been completely productive with my days and that my words are just filling up pages in my notebook, but I can't say that. I actually did go and have a writing day with my friend before this month started and I had this idea all planned out to the point where I could start writing and it made sense, but I couldn't go through with it. It was all about vampires and in my opinion it was just what I needed. the perfect blend of violence, and freedom, and fighting for what was right. I couldn't even start it. So far the past months, I've been doing nothing but going to work and coming home to sleep. There were two or three days where I actually got to hang out with friends that wasn't at work and that was amazing.

I'm still in the process of reading The Bloodlines series by Richelle Mead and it's still good. I just bought the third book and now there's two guys on the cover as well as the girl. I'm really hoping that it doesn't turn into some love triangle. I can't express how much I hate love triangles, which was the main reason why I stopped reading young adult books in the first place because it seems that's all there was with every book I would pick up. I was completely hesitant on stating this genre again, but I remembered how much I loved The Vampire Academy series a couple years ago, so hopefully it isn't too bad. Right not it's the only series I'm reading and I have no idea what I'm going to red next. I don't know if I'm going to start the Harry Potter series again or just try to find something else entirely.

The other day me and my friend were hanging out at Books A Million and I found myself in the new age area looking at all the books they had about magic, spells, and tarots. (I don't know why they call it new age, when it's been around longer than Christianity) But anyway, I've always wanted to learn more about this stuff. I've always found it fascinating and would always check out books about Wicca and Pagan stuff at the library whenever I wanted to write a story about witches. I fell in love with this kind of stuff and how they were connected to the basic elements and so on. While I was standing there, I was just itching to purchase all these books and start my research. I didn't get them but its been on my mind and I haven't been able to think about anything else or the fact that I really do want to write something about spell castors. Whether they are going to witches or not, is still undecided in my head.

I've been thinking about it for a long time now too. How I want it to be a YA and how it's mostly about self discovery and romance, because I can't write anything without having some type of romance in it. Though the way I see it in my head, I know I'm going to have to right it differently then my previous stories and I know that's mostly whats been holding me back from starting.

On other news I'm going to start cleaning up my pinterest. I have too many folders for things that don't need their own folders. So hopefully while I'm doing this it'll set off some type of inspiration and get me moving on my plan.

Only Me

I got a pretty new notebook yesterday and I absolutely love it. Want to know what else happened? My brain just exploaded with these ideas. I was think about vampires and witches yesterday, but the second I got my hands on this I realized that wasn't what I was going to write. So, I wrote my ideas down and just slept on them. I know how I can be and sometimes I end up changing my mind after a good nights sleep because I realize the idea I though was so amazing, really wasnt. Only this time I woke up so excited to start working on this that I grabbed my notebook, headed downstairs and started writing. Yep, thats right. I started writing and love what I wrote. I mean I'm still undecided on how I want to go about the story and if I want it to be in third or first persons point of view, but I'm just gonna keep writing until I can't anymore.

I can't believe this happened and how completely excited I am at the moment. It's too bad I have to go to work in just a few but it'll just give me more time to think of more ideas. Also I realized that what I'm writing is magical realism. I never thought I would be able to do it, but here I am. I've got no title, not that many characters, but its not stopping my pen from writing across the page. I haven't been able to do that in almost three years. I know that as soon as I work through more of what I have and actually start getting somewhere this project is going to have my full attention and hopefully it'll get posted up on my figment page in the next couple of months.

I'm happy that come July I'll actually have a good project to work on for camp nanowrimo. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and hope that this becomes something amazing.

Thing's Are Finally on the Move

Usually when I'm not stumbling around on pinterest, I'm usually searching through the pages of deviantart. A while ago I stumbled across a photographer Laura Makabresku and her photos have these little stories that go with them and I slowly got lost in her world. It has this dark touch to them that have kept me fascinated from the moment I learned of her.

 Here are a couple of her works.

I can't deny that they have had a large influence on my writing from the moment that I found her. There's always been a story in my head, all muddled up and barely understandable, but slowly I'm making my way through the details. I've read so many books and fairytales as well where the guy is always the hero. He saves the girl. I don't mind these types of stories. However it's when I spend hours in a bookstore going up and down the same isle and pulling out books from left to right that I find these gems where it's the girl saving the boy. She isn't anything extraordinary (not at first) she's normal and without powers, but the boy makes her this amazing person who has the power to save him and the world sometimes. I absolutely love these types of stories.

That's kind of when I realized that this was what I needed to write. It wasn't about the boy saving his princess. It was about the girl saving her prince, or beast, or even the powerful wizard who was too busy saving everyone else.

I finally have a title that I'm completely in love with and it actually goes with the plot of my story. Yes! I finally have a plot as well and now it's just working on the characters and the small details that make the story a story.

This story really wouldn't have started moving without the inspiration of this song Fire and Fury by Skillet. I have loved this banned for years now, but I stopped listening to them a while back. I went to a concert of theirs a while ago and they played this song and I remember standing in the crowd, letting the music just pulse through me when suddenly I wasn't there anymore. I was watching these two characters and I just knew they were waiting for me to write there story,

Why Can't Titles Be Easier To Choose?

I'm completely terrible at this. Whenever I decide that I'm going to get serious about writing and latch on to an idea I have, I always get stumped on the title. Forget about a plot and character names. I always get stuck on a title because I feel like I need the perfect one. Everyone always says to leave that last and that once I have more of a plot the title will be easier to come up with. No matter how much I try to take their advice, I just can't. I like being able to give my story a title even though it's not really a story yet.

I spent most of my day at work yesterday trying to think of different titles and situations for the story. It didn't really go anywhere. Like, I know for sure that my story is fantasy and that it leans more towards the magical, fairy tale part of fantasy almost. There are still so many details that I have to work out and the longer I think about it, the more excited and frustrated I get.

Every time I think up a title, I realize it doesn't really work. It works better as a chapter than anything else. Hopefully it doesn't keep me down too long.

I discovered a couple sites for writing recently too. Though my favorite by far is figment. It's just so wonderful looking and I've read such amazing stories on there already. I also discovered Camp Nanowrimo, which is a month writing challenge set in July. So my plan is to hopefully start sorting out the plot and details of my story so when July does come, I can start writing. I'm going to make my goal of 20,000 words and hope for the best.